New Year's Eve

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Jack had gotten Ianto and Gwen tucked in for the night and warmed up by the fire before heading upstairs. He entered the Doctor's room quietly, just watching him sleep for a minute before stripping down and sliding into bed beside him. "Hey," he whispered. "Wake up?"

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[captainjack.livejournal.com]

He pressed in slowly, patiently waiting for him to relax and open to him. "And you're still so eager to give it up to me. You think you're safe because I love you? Worship you? Because I still want you, even when you fuck me over, again and again?" he asked.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

It was hard to relax when Jack was talking like that, but the booze helped. It helped a lot. But it didn't make the Doctor any less of a fighter. He looked back over his shoulder and nearly spat out the words. "I never think I'm safe. Ever."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

Jack caught him by the hair, pulling to keep his head up while he sank in fully. He used his weight to push the Doctor flat to the bed, his whole body laid over him. "Are you trying to make me hate you?" he asked softly, terrified of either answer.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

The answer was delayed while he cried out, pinned to the bed by Jack's body, yes, but moreso and more emphatically, emotionally, by his cock. His hips shifted and he moaned, trying not to be turned on. "It's all I fucking deserve," he replied, swallowing hard. "Easier than forgiveness."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

He stretched to be as close as he could to the Doctor's ear before whispering, "You're human now, Doctor. You don't want me to hate you. You don't want forgiveness, fine...but don't ask me to be your enemy," he whispered as he began to move. He thrust slowly, carefully, fucking him sweetly in frightening contrast to his words.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

"I won't," the Doctor said, or tried to say, but the words were choked up in his throat. He reached back to hold Jack's hip, feel him moving, so good and sweet it made him ache.

"Want forgiveness. Just...don't know how."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"I know," he whispered, kissing across his shoulders as he let go of his hair, only to trail his fingers lightly down his arm. "I know what you want."

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

"Help me?" he asked, voice soft and small. Which he never would have said, had the drink not been still, some, flowing in his bloodstream.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

Jack braced himself on his elbows and nodded. He hooked the Doctor's leg with his left, bringing it to the center, the repeated it with his right until he was straddling him and those long, firm legs were held together. He barely moved, only enough to keep the pressure from making him ache.

He grasped the Doctor's wrists again and pulled his arms in close as he gripped him with his knees and thighs, to, holding him firmly to the bed. "How much do you think I can help you, when all I want to do is hurt you right now?" he asked softly.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

"Maybe..." The Doctor bit back a whimper and a sharp cry, shifting against him enough to keep the pain from settling. "Maybe I believe in you. Like I always have."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

He nodded against the Doctor's back and slowly, carefully pulled out. Re settled close on top of him, cock resting against his ass, and gently kissed the back of his neck without a word.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

He moaned low and long, trembling at the loss but also in a little relief. He wanted to curl up, try to disappear in on himself, but that was impossible like this. "Jack..."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"Shh," he breathed, holding on. "Moral high ground."

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

He laughed a little, quietly, then it turned into an almost shaking sob.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

Jack held on tightly, kissing him soft and slow. "I don't want to be enemies, Doctor. I love you."

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

"I know you do. I..." He shivered and gulped again. "I'm more used to enemies than friends."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

He rolled off, pushing the Doctor's shoulder so he could see his face. "Think you've got it in you to give me a go?" he repeated, just as much of a challenge this time as earlier.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

The Doctor's lips quirked slightly, and he looked Jack in the eye. "Yeah."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

Jack cupped his cheek, gently stroking beneath his eye with a light thumb. "I can't keep doing this, Doctor," he smiled. "I'm not going to keep doing this."

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

For some reason, that terrified the Doctor more than anything before it. "I'm sorry," he said, meeting his gaze.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"I forgive you," Jack replied, kissing his softly. "Now you need to forgive yourself because I can't hurt you any more. I can't be that for you."

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

The Doctor nodded slowly. "Yeah," he said. "I kinda figured that out. Jack...?"

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"Yeah?"

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

"Thank you."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

He closed his eyes and nodded, leaning in to kiss him slowly, tenderly tracing the softness of those lips. "You're welcome."