[for the doctor]

[more_flexible]

Jack wasn't sure how he was feeling. Torn between his future self and his past self and what he'd become here and now. It was so strange, allowing himself to open up a fraction at a time.

The only thing he was sure of was that he couldn't sleep alone. Ace had stayed last night, but tonight he wanted something she couldn't do. Or he wouldn't do to her. However that worked.

One flight down and he was in the Doctor's room without a word, in his bed with nearly a sound, and kissing him like he hadn't kissed him in a long time.

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[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

The Doctor had been asleep, but the kiss startled him into waking. Chase had been with House for a while (though House's fling with his motorcycle could prove that interesting), and so he was alone, and...well, not expecting to be snogged.

He stirred and kissed back, sloppy, not as hard, and instinctive. He could tell who it was from the scent and from the way he kissed, but he wasn't certain why Jack was there.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

Without breaking the kiss, he popped his fly and shoved his jeans off, kicking them away. He pulled away only long enough to get the t shirt off over his head, then resumed kissing the Doctor, slow and deep, his tongue flitting lightly along his lips.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

The Doctor tugged his lips away for a moment, just to Jack's jaw. "What's going on, sweet?" he murmured, even though his leg was drawing up Jack's side without even his realising. He only had boxers on, after all, and he could feel the heat through the thin cotton.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"Can't be alone," he murmured, lips moving down his neck. "I just need you here. Just need you," he whispered.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

He opened his mouth like he was going to say something about it being sudden, then closed it. How many times had he told Jack he needed him, needed his help?

"Okay," he said softly, wrapping his arms around him drowsily. "Okay."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

This awful weight he'd carried around, hating him so deeply that he'd just left was gone, and in its wake was a hollow that he couldn't fill. He'd talked to House about what had happened with Chase, but right now he just didn't care. Didn't care who loved who more or in what ways. He and the Doctor had something almost elemental between them. Even here.

"I need you," he said again, squirming closer, hands roaming over his skin.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

"I know." He ran his hand down to the small of Jack's back, pressing there fairly firmly as he drew his lips along his jaw. "Let me...let me wake up?" he asked, not using it as an excuse but as the truth.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"Yeah," he breathed, still touching him. "Yeah, wake up."

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

He nuzzled his face into Jack's neck, lips and tongue and teeth pressing in, hand sliding further down to cup his arse and pull him in, fabric the only thing separating them. "Smell good. Taste better. God, Jack."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

His whole body prickled with goosebumps and he offered him more. More neck, more everything. "I love you, y'know," he murmured.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

"I love you too," the Doctor murmured, and meant it. He slowly took Jack's hand and eased it down under the elastic of his own boxers.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

He cupped him for a moment, just feeling the growing hardness beneath his palm before he stroked lightly. He didn't even know how to explain this new hollow, or why he desperately wanted the Doctor to fill it up. Hopefully, kissing him would get the point across.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

The kiss did; almost as if he was still empathic. He whimpered slightly, but it wasn't just because of the touch, it was because he knew something was wrong, felt wrong. And he had to fix it.

Carefully, he slid out of his pants. "Tell me what you need, love," he whispered.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"Fill me up?" he asked, his voice breaking. "Just need you." He dropped a kiss against his temple as his fingers closed around the firm heat of his cock. "Can't explain..."

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

He nodded against Jack, then gasped, back arching sharply as the pressure of warm fingers surrounded his cock. "Don't have to. Just...do you have things? To help..."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"Jeans," he nodded, making no move to get them. "I'm sorry," he continued, kissingdown his neck to his shoulders. "Sorry I ever doubted you. Never again."

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

He had no idea what Jack meant, if this was something recent or something less so. "It's okay," he said softly, and ran his fingers through Jack's hair. "Jack, sweet, it's okay."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

He rolled beneath the touch, searching for more contact at every point. "Want you so much, Doctor," he purred as he finally rested his head on his chest, listening to his breathing and heartbeats.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

His hand slid down between then, grasped Jack's cock softly at the same time he held his arse to keep them close. "Always," he murmured, kissing the top of his hair.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

Jack lifted his head and looked at him, his eyes burning even in the darkened room. "Fuck me," he said softly.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

The Doctor's eyes met his, flashing dark for a moment. "Get it, then?" he said, his voice just as quiet as he let go so Jack could do so.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

He moved over, scrabbling for his jeans and coming back up after a moment. "I..." he started to explain, but words failed him again. He swallowed hard and flashed a shy smile. "I love you," he said again, reassuring himself as much as telling the Doctor.

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

"I love you," the Doctor replied, looking back at him and smiling softly. He reached out and offered Jack his hand.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

Jack smiled back and took his hand. He'd always take that hand if it was offered. Leanng in, he kissed him softly. "No pain," he murmured against his lips. "Don't hurt me."

[sortofaman.livejournal.com]

"Won't," he murmured, slipping the tube out of Jack's hand and into his own, before kissing the corner of his mouth and murmuring. "Promise. You want to be on top?"