[for Ianto re:Ace]

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Jack-

I need time to think, because because while I meant everything everything I said yesterday I don't know why I told you. I- It's not something that I'm fine, and I know how to handle myself, so I'll be safe.

I know that you have what you have with Greg, and it was stupid there's more then enough challenges without me doing saying what I did. I'm sorry-

I- Tell Ianto I'm sorry too, will you? Things- Things happened there yesterday, too. I'm scared It'll be alright.

I love you Take care of yourself, alright?

Ace


It was pinned to her jacket, which she rarely left behind. She couldn't have gone far. He couldn't believe he'd slept deeply enough not to notice.

He held the note and read it over and over, then shook his head and went to his room to pull on jeans and boots, a t-shirt he didn't mind ruining, and a button down shirt in case it took more than one night to find her.

He left a note for everyone in the house, specific and vague at the same time and to the effect of Gone with Ianto to find Ace. Took Stu's gun. WILL return.

First stop was the Redman's hut where he told Stu what had happened and he gave over the M16 without any fuss. The Texan had insisted he take his backpack as well, so by the time he was at Ianto and Tosh's hut, he was ready to go.

"Ianto," he called, knocking hard. "Need your help...you in there?"

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[coffee_sir]

Ianto was watching quietly as he had done before, catching the motion of Jack's, knowing to step forward. He was at the side of either of them, and placed his hand lightly on Ace's back. A glance was spared to Jack before his attention fully centered on Ace.

"We don't want you to hurt, Ace. Anything that we can do to make it better, just let us know."

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She was trembling under his fingers. "W-what if you could- j-just for-" She looked away. "I- I can't- Jack, Ianto, I-" She couldn't- She couldn't even say it, that maybe- maybe they could try, and see if it could work- Or-

She couldn't ask him for that. Couldn't take it, even. He- He was with Greg, and- and it was so important to him- "You- you can't. Wouldn't." She forced a smile, that little piece of a person's mind that they crudely called the 'heart' almost visibly cracking. "And- And I- I can't- Not- not when-" She touched his cheek with shaking fingers, barely holding it together. "I-" She swallowed hard, wishing- wishing she could do it. I love you. Love me. Just try, for me.

She should leave. Somehow leave and just stay away and not- not be near people, not hurt anyone, not get herself hurt-

She wished she could be selfish, that she could just take and that it wouldn't matter - but... but it all mattered. And that- and that he didn't just- that he didn't want- that it was- that he was trying to fix her, which is why he offered-

That hurt more, somehow. That she was so broken that he had to offer this thing that he didn't want, that he was willing to mess up everything he'd tried for just because she was that messed up-

She looked back at Ianto, that utter hopelessness in her eyes. "I'm sorry, Ianto. About earlier. I- I don't know why-" She shook her head, and looked back at Jack. "I- I'm not- I'm not what you want, Jack." She was trying to keep her voice steady, but it'd dropped to a whisper, that spark that made her her just... gone from her eyes.

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What if he could? What if?...It wasn't like he didn't want to. Wasn't like it was as easy to be in bed next her and do nothing.

Sometimes he just wanted to shake her til she rattled. Didn't she listen? Couldn't she tell? Jack felt her trembling and saw the light in her eyes was just the fire. If he lost her...if this was the only moment he'd ever have with Ace...

He stopped thinking about it.

"What I want..." he started, then he kissed her again, completely ready to take it on the chin this time, but he couldn't let her go without proving her wrong. She was exactly what he wanted. Maybe not the only thing, and he knew that wasn't fair to her, but he wanted her. Had wanted her for months.

He wrapped his free arm around her waist until he could catch Ianto and keep him close, too. He'd taken it back, the whole 'touch her and I'll kill you' thing. He wanted Ianto to know he meant it.

[coffee_sir]

Ianto's mind boggled at how the hell this happened, exactly. The kiss hadn't worked the first time, and Ianto doubted it would work the second, but pulling away wasn't an option. He'd stepped forward, and Jack was making sure he wouldn't step back, not that he would.

Still, it wasn't as if he were in this situation on a regular basis and was a little lost as to what to do. His hand traveled up her back, so that once her kiss with Jack was broken, Ianto leaned in, cupping the side of her face lightly, and kissed her as well.

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Ace leaned up into that kiss, her hand lost in Jack's hair, her lips so bittersweet against his until she pulled back, hot tears slipping down her cheeks. She opened her mouth to say something - something like I don't want you to do this if you don't want too Or- or something, but then- then Ianto's hand was cupping her cheek, and then there was that gentle touch of lips and she'd half-turned, sagging to lean against Jack, her other hand slipping up to Ianto's hair.

She didn't even know what was happening, but- but they wanted- they wanted this? Wanted- Wanted her?

Just once. Just once can't hurt, to give in and just take what they're offering, just this once. She pulled back, mururing against his lips. "Just- just this once-"

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As she kissed Ianto, Jack dropped his lips to her neck, working his way down her bare shoulder.

"Once," he agreed. His hand skimmed over smooth skin, tracing the curve of her back. The other released the desperate hold on Ianto and slid down to cup his ass. This was probably a phenomenally bad idea...for some reason that completely escaped him. All he could think about was how she smelled, tasted, how she looked as the flames flicked and danced turning all three of them into shadows of themselves.

[coffee_sir]

Ianto hummed his wordless agreement, nodding once before pressing his lips to Ace's again, a deeper kiss this time. This was probably a horrible idea, but if this was what Ace wanted, just once, Ianto couldn't deny her. He'd take the consequences. His free hand slid under Jack's shirt, eager to touch and to skim along the warm skin of his lower back.

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She whimpered softly, trapped between them as she turned more against Jack, her back pressed to his chest as she leaned up to actually kiss Ianto, before- well, before she pulled back, and she looked over her shoulder at Jack, then back at Ianto. "I- I haven't-" He needed to know. Jack already did, but-

She did look back at Jack, then, stark vunerability in her eyes. "Are you sure? I-" She wanted this, but- "Only if you're sure. B-Both of you." That part still- well. She... she supposed that it was one way to do things, and- and if they both wanted it - wanted her-

And even though it would hurt because, God, she still loved him, maybe she could have that little piece and that wondering why he didn't want her could go away.

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"I'm sure," Jack replied, kisses still falling on her shoulders. "And I know you haven't. You can always change your mind, Ace." He looked over her shoulder at Ianto and smiled softly. "That sound right, Ianto?"

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Caressing her cheek, Ianto nodded, gaze flicking up to Jack, then back to Ace. "I'm sure," he said. "And anytime you want this to stop, you just say so. This is about you."

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This is about you.

Ace flushed, and looked back at Jack again, and then at Ianto, trying to decide- Trying... Trying to figure it out. Would it hurt them, in the end? Would it hurt her? She wanted this so much - wanted to be wanted, wished for it, even.

She looked up at Ianto, and it took several tries for the words to slip from her lips, but- "Please?" She ran her fingers featherlight over his jaw, her eyes searching his. She didn't know how to move, how to start things so that- so that it was alright. "I'm not... sure what I should do." What's allowed, what's not- and... and if they'd- If they'd go that far.

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Jack stepped back first, letting go of them both but offering his hands. "Let's go into the tent. I made up a bed," he said softly. "And then, Ace, just do what you feel. There's no making mistakes."

Well, there was. There were huge mistakes all the time. But not here or now or this.

[coffee_sir]

Tilting his head slightly, eyes still matched calmly on Ace's, Ianto kissed at her fingers as they moved over his jaw. His hand fell from her cheek to her arm, gently stroking her skin, reassuring and light. "You do what feels right," he said softly, echoing Jack as he took his hand.

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She hesitated, her hand finding Jack's and letting him lead her. She was still slightly- maybe more then slightly nervous, not sure what to do-

But before they moved into the tent, she tugged Jack closer, her other hand in Ianto's, her mouth seeking Jack's, just- just wanting that closeness. She was... she didn't even know what to think.

"This- This feels right-" Ianto warm against her back, both of them- Even though it somehow would be bad later, right now-

Right now it was more then right.

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He kissed her back, tenderly but with barely contained hunger. She had to know, and if she didn't, she needed to know. This wasn't only about her. It wasn't about pity or fixing or helping or changing her.

He wanted her. Her.

"Feels very right," he agreed.

His kiss became more fervent and he dropped her hand, pulling her closer and tugging at Ianto's hand as he stepped back once more, closer to the tent as he kicked off his boots.

[coffee_sir]

Doubts and hesitations had to be cast aside now. Ianto couldn't let himself wonder, just made himself focus on Jack's pull, how small Ace seemed between them but warm.

He made himself focus on that, focus on answering Jack's tug by gently pushing closer to Ace, directing them to the tent as he kissed from her shoulder up her neck. He focused on that and not how he wanted this too, a rather base desire with two people he trusted and cared about.

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She slipped in with Jack, toeing off her boots and trying not to trip. "S'Alright?" She still looked hesitant, looking over her shoulder at Ianto as she moved into the tent, her hand still on Ianto's. She bit her lip, and inhaled, looking back over her shoulder at Jack. "I- What-" What do we do after?

"What's going to happen?" She shook her head slightly. "Not- Not this. I- I just- I don't want to do the- the wrong thing? I mean- you're doing this-" She swallowed. "I- I know that- Wanting- it's- it's not-"

She kissed Jack hard, pulling back only slightly. "To shut myself up."

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He kissed her back, smiling against her lips. "Talk all you want," he purred, pulling away only to turn to Ianto and kiss him softly. Two people who, of everyone here, he didn't have to try around. Who just knew he was who he was and weren't horrified.

Eager, but not frantic, he touched them both, kissing Ace, then Ianto, then Ace again. When they kissed each other he fixed his attention on undressing them a bit at a time, everything blurring together until all he knew was the feeling of bodies and the scent of sweat and jungle and clean water still clinging to Ace's hair a little from when she must have cleaned off the dinosaur remains.

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Ace's trousers somehow ended up... well, not on her body, her pants riding low on her hips. "I- What's going to happen after this, Jack?" She asked him slowly, her tongue skimming over his throat. "I- I don't want this to be-" She whispered in his ear, her voice hesitating. "I don't want it to be- to be because you have to, or because you want to... fix... me." Her mouth skimmed his ear, her hand trembling as it ran over his shoulder.

She could feel Ianto's warmth against her back, his lips on her shoulder.

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"You think things will change so much?" he breathed, hooking his thumbs in the elastic and pushing down gently. Lips traled from her mouth, down her neck, and across her shoulder only to meet Ianto's lips for a moment.

"I can't fix you and I don't want to. I just want you to stop shutting me out. I want you to let me in, Ace," he purred, his fingers slipping between her thighs as the pants dropped away.

"Let us both in."

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"Please, Ace," Ianto murmured against her ear, trailing his tongue across the skin of the shell. His hand moved up her back, caressing and massaging at her shoulder where his mouth had been before. "We want to. Don't worry about later. Just relax."

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She shivered, her thighs parting as she leaned back against Ianto, her hips moving just slightly towards Jack's fingers as she tried to think. Tried, and failed, a whimper pulled from her lips as her breasts rose and fell - still in her bra, the only bit of clothing that was left.

"I- Oh, God-" She twisted to catch Ianto's lips in a kiss, her fingers in Jack's hair. Her pulse fluttered under her skin, her hair curling just slightly from drying when it was wet. "Please-" It was a whisper, already wet and wanting.

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"Yeah," he exhaled, nodding as he kissed along her throat, breathing her in. His fingers slipped deeper, pressing in and pulling back, bringing her just to the edge. He looked up, not at her, but at Ianto, and his eyes held the same smouldering darkness they had they last time they'd been together. This time was nowhere near as desperate as he'd been on the beach.

"I love you, Ace. No matter what, remember that," he purred, dropping to the rough bed of sheets that had been laid out. He pulled his fingers from her slowly and ghosted his other hand along Ianto's hip, the bare skin so warm and smooth. He met Ianto's eyes for a second and repeated it, this time to him. "I love you."

[coffee_sir]

He held Ace to him as she leaned, an arm wrapping around her waist, hand skimming over her hip. It took a second before Ianto could break his gaze from Jack, turning his face into Ace's neck to kiss and nip before undoing the clasp on her bra.

Words stuck in his throat, refusing to come out, blocked by something he was feeling. He slowly sank to his knees on the bed, lips and tongue sliding down Ace's back and hip as he did. He looked up at her, fingers hovering over her thigh and up to her hand, inviting, then turned to kiss Jack slowly.

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Her knees nearly buckled when Jack's fingers - when they did that, except Ianto's arm around her waist gave her the support she needed. Her hand slipped back into Ianto's hair, her body leaning back against his until he moved, too. She felt his mouth on her back and she trembled, her fingers in his hair as his name was just a whisper from her throat.

She squeezed Ianto's hand, her breath catching as she slid to her knees and there was something about watching the two of them- She licked her lips, and finally somehow realised that they were both naked that even as her bra slipped down her arms, she was naked, too.

.. She'd never actually been- She'd been topless with Sandor, but- but this was different, and somehow even as she sank to her knees she was just skimming her fingers over skin, her lips pressing against Ianto's upper arm. She was so much smaller then they were - it didn't really hit home until now, until her nails skimmed over Jack's lower back. She bit back the urge to ask one last time Is this alright, and instead she bit her lip, trying to regain some sense of equilibrium.