Logan

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The day had gone okay, Jack had talked to some people, taken a trip to the waterfall, come back and had coffee, and now it was time to find somewhere to sleep. Jack walked with Logan and was keenly aware the younger man was upset. He could almost taste it/ THe tension grew as they made their way to the Hidden Hamlet to settle down for the night. Each of them carried a bag and some bedding and Jack figured it would be more than enough to crash at Joe's for a while.

"Logan, what's the matter," Jack said when they were almost there and he just couldn't stand the silence anymore. "Just talk to me. I promise I'll remember. I'm feeling a lot better."

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[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"I'll go slow," he promised, then moved the oil closer. "I'll show you just how patient I can be."

He moved again so he was at a better angle and began to tease Logan a little. He pulled the toy out a little more, lined up his cock, then grasped both so he could slowly, slowly violate his husband. It felt strange, the rigid and unforgiving thing against his cock instead of the warm, sweet grip of Logan's body. He got used to it fast though.

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It wasn't a feeling Logan could ever even hope to describe, he could feel the toy, and he could feel Jack, but it was all slightly muted at first by the pain as his body stretched to take it all.

His skin burned red hot with humiliation, and as he turned his face away he wondered just how he'd gotten to this point in his life.

There had been a time where he'd have never agreed to this. Now he invited it.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

Jack kept thrusting. Slowly-- so slowly. He sank in inch by inch until he could go no farther, then he waited for Logan to get used to it before he drew back. He went just as slowly out and when he'd nearly withdrawn, Jack picked up the oil and slicked everything well. He knew it had to ache, but he didn't want Logan in real pain. He wanted him to love this.

"Embarrassed?" he asked, noting how the man blushed. "You should be. You're kind of a pervert...the things you like. You wish this was really another cock? You ever think about having me and someone else inside you?"

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"Shut up," Logan whispered, biting his lip to stop a groan as he looked away. "Just shut up, Harkness."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"I know what you think about. I know your dirty fantasies. I know you'd like to be bound, forced to suck some guy off while I fuck you. I know the darker things to. How I hurt you. Drown you...remember that?" he asked as he picked up the pace. It was easier now that everything was well slicked and Logan's body only protested every now and again.

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"Shut up," Logan whispered again.

Jack's voice made him feel so small and so stupid, and he hid his face as best he could from the other man as he started to try and free himself again.

The humiliation cut deep, and he wondered, not for the first time, just what was wrong with him.

"I don't want this," he lied. "Let me go."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"Fuck that.It's too late to say no," Jack replied. He moved faster, rolling his hips and sinking in deep. The toy rubbed against him and made him gasp and choke adn he wanted so bad to make Logan beg.He doubted he would, though. Not like this.

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His eyes were damp as he thought back on all the fucked up things they'd done. All the things he'd asked for, all the things he'd done to Jack...

Was this really who he was now? What had happened to the cock brat from Neptune? The kid who refused to be knocked down without a fight, and was too proud to be weak.

Who was he now if he wasn't that boy anymore?

"Jack," he gasped, his body shaking as he broke down, coming undone beneath the other man.

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Jack pulled back and withdrew the toy and laid it aside. He thrust in deep and leaned close to just hold Logan.

"Did I really hurt you?" he asked quietly as he went still and held the trembling man. "Logan, are you okay?"

[echolls-cursed.livejournal.com]

The trembling slowly stopped, and he held on to the other man with his bound hands.

He didn't know what to say. How was he supposed to explain that he wasn't sure who he was anymore?

He'd been sure that coming home meant going back to the start, but Logan didn't think he could be that person anymore.

He wasn't even sure he wanted to be.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"It's okay, baby. I'll stop," Jack said softly. He withdrew and moved so he could hold Logan better. He made no move to untie Logan. He just held him.

After all this time Jack could tell the difference between when Logan was fucking with him and when something was honestly wrong. He knew the boundaries and something like this, though he wasn't sure what was going on, wasn't something he'd ignore for his own pleasure.

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"I'm sorry," the younger man whispered. "Fuck, I'm really sorry- I... You didn't have to stop."

He exhaled sharply and opened his eyes.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"I'm not going to keep going if something's wrong," Jack replied quietly. Logan looked so young in the angle of morning light. It was weird. The light here wasn't like it was in Bohemia it seemed.

"Do you want to tell me? Or we can just wait..."

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Logan didn't answer right away, and he lay quietly for a long moment before clearing his throat.

"I just... You know how you were saying a few days ago that we don't fight anymore? I was thinking about that, and about all those other things. The stuff I ask for. The shit we do. When I first came here, I'd have never... I just wouldn't have. So does that mean I'm not that guy anymore? And if I'm not Logan Echolls, who the fuck am I?"

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"Logan, you've grown up. You've become a man," Jack said softly. "Everyone changes. I mean, hell, when I got here all I did was get laid, smoke pot, and lay around. This place changes us, though. You'd have never been with me like this when you first got here? Newsflash...I'd have never dreamed of being married and devoted to you. To anyone. You're just as much Logan now as you were then. You're just...you're an adult now."

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"But what about the other stuff?" Logan asked. "The stuff i ask for, the things we do..."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"Logan, the most you knew before here was Lilly's fuzzy handcuffs. Trust me, if you didn't like it, we wouldn't do it. And I'm betting that if you'd discovered it back in the world, you'd have been just as into it. I mean, didn't you do anything like this with Neil? Just a little?" Jack replied, then kissed him softly. "It's not bad and it's not wrong and it doesn't mean you're a different person. You're still the same shit I fought with on the beach."

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"I didn't let Neil tie me up. Not like this. I had to be in control, and when I wasn't, I wasn't happy. It's different with you. I'm different with you."

He could feel the kiss lingering on his lips and he studied Jack curiously for a moment.

"Maybe it's time to just be someone new. ...Maybe I don't have to be Logan Echolls anymore."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"Who do you want to be?" Jack asked, chuckling nervously.

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"A Harkness," Logan replied easily.

"Logan Echolls-Harkness. I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to take your name. ...I mean, if it's okay with you."

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"I..."

He clearly didn't know what to say. His jaw hung open for a long moment before he began to smile slowly and he nodded.

"I'd like that," he said. "I'd really like that."

[echolls-cursed.livejournal.com]

Logan relaxed a little and smiled in return.

"Now's probably a good time to untie me so we can pretend to be a normal couple," he said after a beat.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

"But I'm not done with you," Jack smirked. He waited a beat and then nodded slightly before picking at the knots to undo all the tatters of sheet.

"I really was going to fuck you then leave you here," he said. "I had a plan. A good plan."

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"Liar," Logan countered with a laugh, holding onto Jack with his newly freed hands.

"I just want to touch you. you can tie me up later," he purred, kissing Jack soundly and holding on tight.

[captainjack.livejournal.com]

There was a muffled moan and then Jack fell and rolled, pulling Logan on top of him. It felt good to have the weight of his husband on his and the eager kisses were so good. Jack couldn't imagine being happier.

Even if he was so hard he ached. He tried to ignore the throbbing need and just focus on kissing Logan, savoring the taste of him.